Learning to Laugh

Here is the thing, EVERYONE we see comments on how well my mom is doing. Let me just say this, most of you that see her see her for a whopping 10 minutes. Of course you don't notice anything out of the ordinary. Of course she seems fine and normal to you. Feel free to spend an entire day with us if you think you are qualified to determine whether or not she is better. I know, I know, it's what people say. They don't mean anything by it, I get that. I really do, I'm just telling you, we see the stuff day in and day out. We see the triggers, the stress, the digression, so don't tell us you think she's better and fine. Spend some time with us ... seriously!

Okay now that I've got that out of the way :)

Lately, I've really been trying to just stop worrying, stop freaking out and just live in the moment.

Things can be hard and overwhelming and we still have no answers. There are so many ifs ... but I'm tried of dwelling on them and I'm trying to just focus on the now. Today. I'm learning to laugh in the midst of the storm.

We have good days and bad days. But we are finding ways to laugh at the bad. It could cause us to hide in bed and never get out, but instead we are choosing to laugh. We are choosing to enjoy each moment.

I have no idea what the future holds. I have no idea what tomorrow will look like. But I know that whether we have 20 more good years or 1 ... I'm not going to miss the moments worrying. I'm going to wake up everyday thankful for the gift of another day. I'm going to find reasons to love and to laugh and to enjoy.

No matter what you are going through you can find a reason to laugh and a reason to love. We don't have to like the season we are in. We don't even have to understand it. But we can choose how we go through it and so starting today I will choose to be aware. I will choose to love. I will choose to enjoy.

How bout you?