Waiting

It's the waiting that is hard. It's in the waiting that the questions come. It's in the waiting that you aren't sure what to do so you try and move on, but that doesn't feel right, so you just stay kind of stuck.

I hate the waiting.

But..

There is power in the waiting. I'm learning that on my own I'm not strong enough. But if I lean into Him, He is more than enough.

I've heard this song a million and one times on the radio, but it wasn't until this afternoon that it brought me to my knees.

While I'm Waiting 

John Waller

I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait

I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it's not easy no, but faithfully I will wait
Yes, I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint

I want to grow in this time of waiting. I want to fix my eyes on Him and lean into Him and grow. I want to allow His strength to fill me up. So I will worship while I wait. I will believe that He is still a God of miracles. I will fight with all that is in me. But I will worship while I wait. I will not ignore/avoid/or run from Him anymore ... I will turn to Him with my arms open wide and fall into His arms. 

and I will worship.