When It Rains ...

Just when I think things couldn't get much worse ...

The boy has been extremely sick the past week. He started running a fever last Thursday. Dr confirmed a double ear infection, started an antibiotic and expected him to be much better by Sunday. Sunday afternoon he woke up from his nap with 105.6. Scared me to death ... We spent pretty much all night Sunday and all day today trying to keep his fever down. It got up to 105 a few more times, but we did the whole lukewarm bath and alternating meds to try and keep him comfortable. But he has felt MISERABLE. It has been a rough few days. Tonight he was finally acting like himself again so I'm hopeful he is on the mend. I really need him to be on the mend.

Mom did her test in Dallas on Thursday. We heard from the doctor and he wants to see us tomorrow at 3. We had originally been told he would call us with the results so I don't think any of us really know who to feel. I'm imagining he is going to tell us that her brain lit up with protein (which means alot of Alzheimer's) and so he wants to discuss options and where we go from here. There is a small part that still continues to hope things will be different...but hope is a fickle thing.

When I was growing up we always had that January Crusade with Jon Randles. For a few years, they brought in that group All or Nothing. Lately the phrase when it rains it pours has been going through my mind. I feel so completely overwhelmed. I need to be at work this week. It is my LAST week with my kids and finishing things up. Instead I'm taking care of a really sick baby and now going to see yet another doctor with my mom. When it rains ... I know lots of people feel this way though. It feels like when things are going crummy ... they just start to pile up. These lyrics popped into my head this afternoon and I've been humming them all day.

When it rains, He Pours out His love, on His children ...

I can't really remember the rest, but that part is on repeat. God hasn't abandoned me. He knows, he hears, he cares...I'm clinging to that!

I'll keep you all posted on tomorrow. I don't really even know what to pray for, but I find myself in that place a lot these days. I'm learning that when I don't know what to say ... he meets me right there. For me that's a really good place to be.