Good

Bless it. This has been the longest week of my life and it is only Wednesday. I literally felt myself breaking last night. I felt a breakdown coming on like I’ve never felt it before. As I laid my head on the pillow last night I told God, seriously if you love me at all, that baby needs to sleep. We’d had two straight nights of about 2 hours of sleep. He was beyond miserable and feeling awful. Both mom and dad were feeling awful and the hubs was out of town at his two week long training. I don’t like to test God … I know that’s frowned upon. But friends, I NEEDED rest!

…and he provided. It  took forever to get that baby to sleep. I literally drove around for over an hour with Let it Go (blame that one on my babysitter) on repeat. Finally about 9:30 he was out. I worked until about midnight and crawled into bed, just dreading the cry that would inevitably come. IT DIDN’T!! I got up to my alarm, showered, dressed, had coffee and started my computer to log in all before he woke up! It was such a small little blessing, that I NEEDED so desperately.

It kind of got me to thinking about the past year or so of my life. There are so many ways that He has been good to me. So many ways that He has shown up for me. I’m not sure why I doubt Him. I’m not sure why I direct ALL my anger at him (okay maybe not all, the poor hub gets his fair share).  But the truth is even in the midst of unimaginable circumstances He is still good, He is still true. He is still God.

There’s a word for us in there, friends. He is still good.

The circumstances aren’t. This week has about done me in. Mom is in the precious argue about everything stage and not one single approach I have tried works. Everyone says just agree with her. Ok! I do that … and then she wants to fight about me agreeing! Some days are better than others that’s for dang sure!

No matter how scheduled and prioritized I have tried to make myself this week – my plans have all gone SPLAT! I can sit around and feel sorry for myself (which for me usually involves chocolate, LOTS of chocolate) or I can determine that tomorrow is a new day, dust myself off and try again.

And well the truth is, I’m trying again. Because He has been SO good to me, I think he’s worth it! Plus I hear He’s all about second chances…