Perfect Love

Lately I've been pretty paralyzed by fear. I know that God is here. I know that He hasn't left me ... but I'm too scared to really move at all. I'm too scared to dream, to scared to hope. I'm just kind of existing. Honestly, I think that's more exhausting than really living.

Most of you know I follow a lot of blogs and bloggers on Facebook. Today this filled up my entire phone screen... and oh how I needed it.

Ann Voskamp is a blogger I follow. She speaks loads of truth. Lately I've ignored it cause who needs all that :) but today I couldn't get it out of my mind, so I went back and read her post. I've copied it below.

"Lord some nights we want someone to punch fear in the face for us, to kick the shins of the pressing dark for us, someone to throw down a finish line for us and say, 'Finished! You Win!!' 

And you nod, because You get it, because You've got us, and You punch fear in the face with one line, with all Your love: 'Perfect love casts out all fear.' And You kick back the dark with one brilliant turn: 'The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.' And You throw down a finish line for us with Your three words: 'It is finished.' 

And we feel the exhale...the way You make the winded and wounded feel the win of an amazing carrying grace. "

(Ann Voskamp http://www.aholyexperience.com/)

I think it is safe to say I'm coming home. I'm not coming to grips with what is happening, or even accepting it really, but I've come to the realization I'm going to have to go through this journey, so I might as well not go it alone. 

I needed to be reminded today that the darkness has not overcome. There is a perfect love that punches this fear in the face and shines its light on the darkness and says, I win! I need that love on my side. 

I wanted to share it with you all too... we all need this perfect love, even when we don't want to admit it. 

Love you all.