A New Thing ...

So before I dive in today let's address something. I'm inspired and just gonna go with it so I've added some tabs to my blog. Don't feel like you have to read anything I write (I pretty much address that on the new Home page) but feel free to read and comment as much as you'd like! I'm on a journey and I love to write about it, so that's where I'm headed!

So I woke up this morning excited. It sounds corny and it really kind of was because I do NOT love mornings. I kind of despise them but my alarm went off and I don't know I just kind of felt excited. The boy was wide awake at 5:15 so I missed my morning workout, but I did get to spend some uninterrupted mommy/son time feeding him this morning, so I'll take it. Then my Mother-in-Law (who is graciously staying with us and helping out while my favorite babysitter takes a MUCH NEEDED vacation) got up and took him so I could get ready. I snuck away for a few minutes to spend some time in the word and I still just could not shake this feeling of excitement. It was more anticipation I guess. I just knew I needed to sit with Jesus.

I opened up the Word to this ...

Isaiah 43:19

See, I am doing a new thing! 

Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? 

I am making a way in the wilderness 

and streams in the wasteland. 

I really like the MSG (even though sometimes it's a rough translation)

Forget about what's happened; 

don't keep going over old history. 

Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand-new. 

It's bursting out! Don't you see it? 

There it is! I'm making a road through the desert, 

rivers in the badlands.

It was like God said yep! This is where we are.

For those of you who have been reading my blog remember Surrender (that just reminded me of a great song by Sara Groves anywho...)? In order to surrender I have to let go. I can't keep going over old history. We were VERY fortunate to get to visit with some dear friends over the weekend. It was SO GOOD, but I also struggled. We rehashed a lot that I had been trying to let go of and talking about it brought back a lot of those feelings. This morning it was like God said it's okay, you don't have to keep going over it and over it, that is not going to change the outcome, it is not going to change where we are now. But that's okay because where we are now is where I want you to be. I want you to be present in the now. I want you to be watching because I'm about to do something new and girl it's gonna be good!

I want that too God! I need it. I don't deserve it but I want it. Honestly, I don't even know what to be expectant for, but I want to be just that ... expectant, because I don't want to miss it.

I started a new book last night. If I'm being honest I read about ten at a time and it's a problem. But I found this one free for my Kindle and it sounded decent so I downloaded it. It's called A Confident Heart by Renee Swope. Yep, God meant for me to find that. Can I just copy a section for you ...

"Why do we look to the things of this world to give us security, self confidence and fulfillment? I think it's because we are bombarded by empty promises for a more fulfilling life. A better husband. A better body. A better career. A more beautifully decorated house. The magazines seem so slick, their promises so enticing. They sneak into our thought processes and make us think, If only I had         , I'd be so secure and fulfilled. But the reality is, every single thing the world offers is temporary. No person, posession, profession or position can ever fill the cup of a wounded, insecure heart. It's an emptiness only God can fill."

As my friend Nadia says, "PREACH!" That my friends is good stuff. Honestly, coming off the last six months one of the biggest things I've struggled with is insecurity. It was like my whole world was kind of tipped upside down and so that whole security thing took a beating. But the reality is while I could not change the situation that happened to us, I could have changed my reaction to it. Instead of running to God to fill that emptiness, I ran to any and everything else (yes that included  Banana Shakes from Braums, way too many of them, but hey banana's are healthy right?)! No wonder my heart still feels so wounded and broken. Everything this world offers is temporary. EVERYTHING. E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. 

Until I grab that I'm afraid I might be missing out on a lot, but it's someething I'm working towards.

So for today I'm claiming these promises ... God is up to something new and He will NOT disappoint.

"Then you will know that I am the Lord. Those who hope in me WILL NOT be disappointed." (Isaiah 49:23)