Numb

I’ve realized lately that I’ve just kind of been going through the motions. Honestly, I’ve just been faking it and pretending like I’m making it…but in all of that I’ve realized that I’ve become really numb.

I move through most of my days getting by, not really making any significant memories or impacts … just kind of numb.

I’ve gotten complacent in my numbness.

And honestly, most of you wouldn’t blame me. Most of you would tell me I’m allowed to be numb, I’m allowed to be complacent. But you know what I’m not. I’ve been stuck in this place for months now. I keep telling myself I’m going to climb out of this hole, but I just don’t!

I’ve been having to drive to Hobart every single day which has really given me some good Jesus time. This morning I was coming over the “mountains” around the “lake” and the sun was just breaking through the fog when this song came on the radio…

Followed by …

 

 

Think God was trying to tell me something?

I can’t get away from Him. I can’t outrun his love. I can’t be apathetic enough that he just throws in the towel and says well she’s beyond my help.

I am not alone. He loves me. He is for me.

I know I needed that today, who knows, maybe someone else does too.