The Big Day ...

I want to ask for a couple things today.

First, peace.

Regardless of what happens today, regardless of what news we get I want my mom to feel peace. She is a nervous wreck. We've had some of the worst days in a long time these past few days. I think part of it is because she is so worried about this trip tomorrow. She is back to her irrational fear that the doctor is going to tell her that she is perfectly fine and making it all up in her head. No matter how much we try to convince her that is just NOT possible...well you know.  I just want the perfect peace to envelope her and come completely over her.

Calm.

I want calmness for my dad. He doesn't admit feelings very often, but he is nervous. We all are. We don't want to get our hopes up, but that's nearly impossible, so all we can do is just hold on to the hope that we know regardless of what we find out tomorrow, God will not be surprised.

That's the theme that is running through my head tonight. No matter what happens none of this catches God off guard. Good or bad, he's going to hold us in his hand and we are going to get through it. He is sovereign and is in control. I can hold on to that.

Pray for answers. Regardless of what they are  - just pray that this doctor, Dr. Wu, will have something to offer us. Something beyond more tests. Something beyond wait and see. I'm not asking for it to be a cure (there's that hope thing again) but I'm just hoping that we have some answers. Something tangible to hold onto, no matter how ugly it may be.

I'm clinging to the perfect love tonight, the perfect love that casts out fears. The perfect love that hides me in the shelter of his wings. Come what may I'm going to keep my trust in him.

On a personal note, some doors have opened and are possibly orchestrating a very timely and perfect opportunity for me. I can't go into more detail yet, but I need my praying peeps to pray that God will clear a path and make all the things possible that need to happen for this to work.

You guys keep me going. You have no clue how much I love you and how thankful I am for you.