Letting Go

It has been an interesting day around here. Mom has a lot of anxiety around this sleep test we are doing tonight and anxiety definitely makes life interesting for her.

Last week was frustrating for us. We hit some walls that really stunk. We wanted answers and plans and we came up short. So we start over this week. We know it won't always be easy, but we know we will take it one day at a time.

I read this today and it spoke volumes to my heart. God's being good about that lately. Putting the words I need to hear right in front of me.

This comes from a blog titled, "What You Can Hold Onto Before Things (and You) Fail This Week." Here's just a few awesome quotes from it ...

"Growing up I always used to think I was too dirty to come to God. Looking back I realize how so much of my performance (whether athletic, religious, academic, etc) came from a place of me feeling like I had to prove something - to God and to others. When I started following Jesus, and grace hit me on the head like a ton of bricks, I still struggled with letting it permeate every last part of me. I still thought I had to attain a certain spiritual level of awesomeness before I could really receive grace.

That was until I read Romans 4:5, which I'd read plenty of times before, but that particular night God made it jump out of the page (He has a funny way of doing that a times, huh?): "and to the one who does not work but believes in him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is counted as righteousness." Romans 4:5

Have you ever sat in the weight of that scripture?

Have you ever realized just how scandalous that verse truly is?

Sometimes in our sanitized, sterile, flat readings we can miss out on the completely explosive language the scripture writers are using to get their point across.

It says God justifies the ungodly. Or in other words, He makes right - the ones who aren't right.

He makes holy the filthy.

He purifies the impure.

You don't have to try harder, you don't have to be better, you don't have to do more, you just have to stop working and TRUST in the one who justifies the ungodly!"

 (http://www.aholyexperience.com/2014/07/what-you-can-hold-on-to-before-things-and-you-fail-this-week/) 

I need to be reminded this journey has ZERO to do with me and EVERYTHING to do with Him. Tough words ... but oh so true.

This song is on my heart today so I'm leaving you with it.

"Through it all, my eyes are on Him."